missing.=)

WANDERING ABOUT

Maaf jika sudah lama tidak update. =) Sy benar-benar berehat cuti kali ini. Menyelongkar minda dan jiwa. Sy sedang mencari identiti dewasa.

Jadi cuti ini dihabiskan dgn berkunjung keluarga rapat,sanak saudara yg kebetulan mengambil peluang balik ke Malaysia setelah bertahun-tahun di negara orang. Membaca buku yg tidak sempat sy hadam ketika pengajian dulu. Terbaru sy taksub dgn Khalil Gibran dan Dr, Tony Zeiss. Kebanyakan buku mengenai membina peribadi, etika pekerjaan dan motivasi kerjaya.

Turut menghabiskan masa di perpustakaan baru Shah Alam dan menghabiskan kutipan data research di PPUM. Alhamdulillah..... sy berjaya mendapatkan 71 responden dan bakal menghadiri MPS konferens di Kuala Lumpur. Langkah kecil yg bermakna sebelum mengambil langkah besar yg penting.

CAREER PLANNING

Kerjaya atau career planning banyak mewarnai cuti saya. Saya mengumpul maklumat, bercakap dgn orang-orang yg berada dalam bidang yg ingin sy ceburi dan merangka perjalanan kerjaya.

Pada masa yg sama cuba membaiki peribadi diri sendiri,kerana maklum bakal masuk kerja November ini. Sejuta satu macam perangai manusia yg bakal sy hadapi. Semoga Allah membantu saya.... Ameen.

I Believe. =)

KEPERCAYAAN,KEYAKINAN.

Baru saja selesai sesi ceramah di Yayasan Restu. Melalui video Solat Terindah oleh Ustaz Kamal, baru sy tahu yg ketika Al-Fatihah dibaca dalam solat,Allah berinteraksi dgn hamba-Nya. Dan solat itu separuh utk hamba-Nya dan separuh utk Allah. Harap-harap sy dpt jumpa video ustaz Kamal utk dikongsi.

p/s: Sy kongsikan video ni dulu ya? =)

Jadual Ramadhan.

PAGI DAN SETERUSNYA

Melatih diri tidur tepat jam 12 malam dan bangun 5 pagi bukan saja penting untuk Ramadhan malah bulan selepasnya,kerana bakal memulakan kerja di awal pagi. Waktu sahur dan waktu berbuka kali ini terasa sangat meriah kerana hampir semua ahli keluarga sy ada. Kecuali Along yg bertugas di Petronas Miri. Alhamdulillah beliau merancang cuti seminggu sebelum raya. ^^

Ramadhan,ialah bulan istimewa keluarga kami. Waktu kami benar2 dapat duduk makan bersama dan berinteraksi. Selalunya selesai buka puasa kami sama-sama ke Masjid Besar Shah Alam untuk terawih. Siang hari kami meneman Mama ke pusat Islam Yayasan Restu untuk ceramah dan tadarus Al-Quran. Sibuk di bulan Ramadhan lebih menenangkan berbanding bulan-bulan lain. Berkatnya bulan Ramadhan.

SLE DAN PUASA

Berpuasa memberi cabaran tersendiri buat saya. SLE akan hanya buat perangai jika saya tidak menjaga makan dan tidur. Tak dapat sy bayangkan bagaimana jika saya sudah bekerja di bulan Ramadhan. Maklum saya akan mula bekerja September ini selepas raya. Kesempatan masa yg ada sy mahu mengisi Ramadhan ini dgn baik.

Semalam migrain menyerang dgn teruk. Sy sudah maklum. Ini gejala biasa yg sy alami. Asalkan sy dapat tahan sehingga waktu berbuka itu sudah cukup baik. Dugaan sakit sy masih kecil berbanding orang lain di luar sana. Sy bersyukur Allah bagi peluang sy menjalani ibadah Ramadhan. Semoga Ramadhan kali ini lebih baik dari Ramadhan sebelumnya. Ameen.

p/s: Banyak rancangan best waktu Ramadhan ni. Jejak Rasul TV3 di Rusia, Syahadah TV1, Palestin Oasis, Tanyalah Ustaz TV9. Dokumentari terbaik! =D

Blog untuk ahli farmasi.

TO BE PREPARED

I found out about a very useful blog while updating news on PRP facebook group. A very good blog indeed. It shares information on the real working life of a pharmacist and written by Mr. Syahrir bin Zaini, UIA graduate now working as Pegawai Farmasi in Johore.

Personally I admire his effort and felt relief as I am actually quite scared to start working . You see, I am not the creme de la creme in pharmacy faculty. Just a typical plain jane who have to strive smart and hard to get my degree in Pharmacy course. Plus with SLE it double the effort in everything. So for my friends I post this entry to share about the blog and hopefully we could empower our career as pharmacist. InsyaAllah..=)

Blog Rahsia Farmasi

p/s:sharing is caring!=)

A song for you.

WATCHING CELINE DION-THROUGH THE EYES OF THE WORLD

Sometimes when I don't know how to express what I really feel, I sing or read a poem. This song-is for all the people I care and love,especially for my family. On my 24th birthday this July, I celebrated it with my family,dining and appreciating the moment together. It's been a quite an extraordinary journey for me and my family. Battling SLE,struggling for a degree and finding Allah's blessing. I am grateful. Alhamdulillah...very grateful. So this song for you Mum & Dad.

p/s: Hope you like it too.=)

Konsisten mengejar cinta.

TERIMA KASIH

Sy menerima emel drpd pembaca blog di email yahoo. Sy menghargainya. Sangat menghargainya. Terima kasih kepada seorang senior UITM dan kenalan librarian dari UIAM. Email kalian ada sy baca dan saya masih kesuntukan masa untuk menjawabnya. Sy mahu menjawab dgn hati yg penuh perhatian seperti kalian juga menulis emel itu dgn penuh prihatin. Seboleh-bolehnya sy mahu begitu.

Sepanjang minggu ini saya menyelesaikan kerja berkaitan research dan hal keluarga. Ditambah flu yg tiba-tiba menyerang menyebabkan sy batalkan beberapa aktiviti luar. Cadangnya mahu singgah lama di Pesta Buku SACC tetapi sy hanya sempat singgah dalam beberapa jam saja. Tak sempat nak tinjau buku baru yg dilancarkan. Tak apalah,sy sempat tengok buku yang saya kehendaki dan berkira-kira mahu membelinya Ahad ini. Ya,hadiah buat diri sendiri ketika ulangtahun nanti.=)

Buku kewangan,buku motivasi,informasi terkini tentang badan NGO dan tentunya potongan harga buku yg dinanti. Minggu ini biarlah kesihatan saya pulih betul-betul dahulu. Ahad ini sy mahu meraikan diri. 9 tahun hidup dgn SLE,24 tahun baru mengabdi diri pd Pencipta dan baru kini bergelar graduan ijazah. Perjalanan masih panjang. Sy mahu konsisten mengejar cita-cita. Juga,konsisten mengejar cinta. Salam berehat buat semua.=)

p/s: Mahu tonton TV9,6.30 ptg utk melihat vlogger matluthfi. Video beliau memang bestlah! hehe...

manage me. manage pain.

STUCK ON YOU
*iklan sebentar: saya nak buku ni puhleeeaaaseee!!^^ hehe...well I will try to find it in any bookstores.Happy hunting books for me.love~<3

Ever since the doctors ask me to stop steroid treatment,I've been trying to cut half all my pred tabs.And...well my health is ok but my limbs & joints are in deep pain. Imagine having muscle pain everyday and try to walk down the stairs with one leg.

I'm stuck with pain all day. Nice. Well,I have to figure out how to live with it. And mum just add a very good supplement to my almost-full-supplement-medication-regiment. Monavie juices. It consist of a very rich antioxidant berry called the acai berry from Amazon,plus with other 18 antioxidants fruits.

Plus I can sleep well at night now and wake up feeling fresh in the morning. Alhamdulillah... I am now in serious mood of vacation. And although I have to add up data for research stuff (yikes!!) UMMC seems to be very serious of outsiders now. I wonder why...oh well,I just try my best and see what happen.

p/s: I can't type smoothly now,since my right hand are numb and painful. Well,let me learn how to type fast with left hand.^^ Practise make puuurrrfect!

suddenly.pack.=)

Life is not just about finding who you are,

It is

Also about creating who you are.

p/s: currently pack with research work. Busy? Not much. I'm just enjoying some good time. InsyaAllah,I'll be writing again for more. Writing helps to make me see the world better. And who knows?

Experience awesome.=)

CREDIT TO EVERYONE

When I got to Stellar Studio in SOHO Empire Gallery,the atmosphere was all about fashion expression. Love it.view from the 2nd floor
After I posted pictures on facebook bout the event,my friends initiated the curiosity and wanted to know more. Plus it was a good experience for me and my lil sis. We got to meet people,observe how they dress and express themselves in creative way. Blogging has open an entirely new world,experience and networking.

Kudos to everyone involve and we hope to see more of this in the future. Wishing you all the best!^^

Oh ya, I post the flyer too. You can see all the bloggers involve. ^^ Get to know them and have fun!=)

p/s:I posted on how fashion in faith can empower women before. My article focus on how women,hijab,religion and fashion entwine. Well,it is hard to believe the combination,no objection there. I wanted to focus on how the perspective can evolve and become better. That's all. If you agree or disagree,it is all up to yourself. I am in no business to persuade or argue. After all, we all are free to believe in what we choose to believe, right?

Fashion in faith-Empowering women.

BERJUMPA HANA TAJIMA

Sy bersyukur. Berjumpa dgn seorang wanita tabah yang memilih Islam sbg kepercayaanya dalam dunia serba mencabar ini. Bukan mudah. Dalam dunia high fashion terutama di negara minoriti Islam bukan mudah menginterpretasikan pemakaian muslimah.

Hijab,menjadi isu besar di negara barat. Bayangkan ini: Di Perancis wanita dibenarkan mendedahkan payudara tetapi purdah diharamkan. Pelik? Ya. Tapi benar.

Saya menyatakan rasa gembira dan bersyukur amat sangat kepada beliau. Jenama internasional yg menekankan pemakaian hijab berfesyen masih muda,tetapi punya potensi besar. Bermula dengan penyanyi Yunalis Zarai yg memperagakan hijab pelbagai gaya di Malaysia,fesyen berjilbab terus menempa nama.

Persoalan ini pula timbul: Sejauh mana fesyen pakaian muslimah ini mematuhi syara' (atau dalam bahasa mudah,syarat-syarat agama Islam?

MELIHAT SUDUT UNTUK PERKEMBANGAN LEBIH POSITIF
Ya, saya faham. Lilitan hijab di kepala sudah pelbagai gaya sehingga sesiapa pun boleh menonton tutorial shawl di You Tube. Pin atas,bawah,tengah,tepi,senget dan macam-macam lagi. Ia satu perkembangan yg menarik tetapi diselit komen-komen yang kadangkala membunuh kreativiti dan ruang perkembangan positif.

Ini pendapat peribadi ya: Saya bersyukur kerana adanya perkongsian memakai tudung pelbagai gaya yang sopan,menarik dan mematuhi syara'.

Tunggu: Ada yg tidak menutup dada? Kenapa pula ada yg menampakkan rambut? Ada yg nampak leher??

Lihat,ini ruang yang boleh dibaiki. Ambil pendekatan yg membaik pulih bukankah lebih banyak fesyen tudung yg mematuhi syara' akan muncul lagi? Silakan komen membina bukan komen menghina!

UKHWAH YG DIBINA
Berjumpa dengan pemilik Shop SPUTNIKSWEETHEART juga merupakan agenda utama saya keyika menghadiri bloggers fashion sale.

Kak Ami Schaheera,merupakan inspirasi alam maya dari aspek kehidupan dan berfesyen. Sy menghormati beliau yang memiliki kekuatan seteguh konkrit. Diuji dengan penyakit kanser tidak mematahkan beliau untuk terus berjuang untuk hidup. Malah inspirasi fesyen bertudung beliau melalui Sputniksweetheart boleh dibanggakan. Jujur,sy harap dapat mengenali lebih dekat lagi dan sentiasa mendoakan yg terbaik untuk beliau.

Turut berjumpa dengan 2 lagi fashion bloggers yg saya kagumi, Ms Adriani Adnan dan Ms Shea Rasol dari Pastelina. Jenama ini menempa nama apabila maxi skirt mereka mendapat perhatian dalam rancangan Wanita Hari Ini. Tahniah! Masih muda,berbakat dan punya potensi untuk menghidupkan fesyen Muslimah di Malaysia.

Mana tahu, kita mampu mengikut jejak Dian Pelangi dari Indonesia yg mendapat liputan BBC.

p/s: Oh ya,malu pula mahu nyatakan ini: Saya adalah seorang yg sederhana dalam fesyen,malah lebih gemar santai saja. Berminat terhadap perkembangan fesyen muslimah kerana bidang ini mampu memberi input positif mengenai Islam dan wanita di seluruh dunia. Juga sudah tidak mahu membayar mahal utk memiliki baju yg sentiasa tak cukup kain serta sendat melampau!

Andreanism-EDENSOR

BERMIMPILAH!

Aku ingin hidup! Aku ingin merasa sari pati hidup!

Sy memeluk karya Edensor,buku pertama Andrea Hirata yg dibeli. Sebelum ini terlalu sibuk mengejar pencarian kerja sementara. Dan esok bakal melawat kampung sebelum ditelan kesibukan yg benar-benar sibuk.

Andrea Hirata mengajar sy bermimpi semula. Kerana sy ini pernah dikecewa oleh sebuah cinta terhadap cita-cita, sy takut mengharap lagi. Barangkali sy tidak mahu mengalami nasib yg serupa. Atau sebenarnya sy belum bersedia utk bermimpi lagi.

Aneh,sy sebak membaca novel Edensor. Ini kerana kesungguhan penulis ini mengejar impiannya. Menolak seribu mahupun sejuta alasan mengejar mimpi-mimpinya.

Dari daerah kecil Belitong entah dari mana ke benua Eropah,mengejar sebuah cita-cita.


MIMPI-MIMPI SAYA

Sy sudah pun di satu garisan penamat ciptaan dunia sy sendiri. Baru habis perjuangan mendapat degree. Sungguh,sewaktu mencari kerja sementara di sekeliling bandar,sy seperti tiada arah tuju lagi. Hambar hidup ini. Tanpa mimpi-mimpi.

Terdengar-dengar dialog Rapunzel dari filem Tangled karya Disney

Rapunzel: I've been looking out of a window for eighteen years, dreaming about what I might feel like when those lights rise in the sky. What if it's not everything I dreamed it would be?
Flynn Rider: It will be.
Rapunzel: And what if it is? What do I do then?
Flynn Rider: Well,that's the good part I guess. You get to go find a new dream.

Mungkin benar. Sudah tiba masanya. Sy bermimpi lagi.

Bermimpilah,kerana Tuhan akan memeluk mimpi-mimpi kita -Edensor, Andrea Hirata.

respond+ability = responsibility

TANAH RUNTUH DI HULU LANGAT

Read about the landslide tragedy here. Takziah. Tiada kata-kata. Hanya doa. Semoga Allah membantu mangsa. Ameen.

REDEFINE?

AFTER NOVELS,MOVIES & BETTY CROCKER....hurm?

There are things I'm not good at. One of it: is spending time doing nothing.

And this final break which could also be known as my 'penganggur terhormat' time is proving a serious headache and bad time wasters.

Really, I need a job. It's been fun spending time at home,cooking, cleaning the horror in my closet and not to mention my serious lack of storage for books. But...after almost two weeks I'm beginning to feel an itch of have to go out more,experience more,travel and if possible get that job,now!

I've read my most anticipated novels (that I save to read after exams) watch movies that I list to my lil sis (to be watched after exams),then after my I-don't-know-how-many-times movie watching,it's time to ditch the 'Betty Crocker' mood and get back to living life.

WHAT I WANT VS WHAT SLE LIMIT ME TO DO. (don't like this one.Yew!)

Now,listing 100 things that inspire and make me happy seems the best thing to do to get to know myself back.I've changed. A lot. And I must get to know myself back and learn to handle things in life that would be unfamiliar to me before.

I was a student before. And my responsibilities lies around me where I could play my part well, because that's what I've been practising for 19 years.

Studying,scoring a.k.a. being a student.

But now, I'm losing the title officially. There's this ME;figuring life and what I should do NOW. I guess the butterfly is out of cocoon right?

Wonder what adventures and life could be ahead?

p/s: SLE still be the worries when I make decision on what I want to do. CRAP!

the final: It's achieavable.

ANTARA CINTA-CINTA
Setahu sy tiada perkara yg lebih menyenangkan apabila sesebuah urusan diselesaikan dgn baik dan bersungguh-sungguh. Perasaan ini sungguh menyenangkan.

Walau dalam misi menyelesaikan sesuatu,segala ranjau berduri,panas terik matahari,diuji sakit tidak terubat dan keadaan menguji kesabaran sebuah iman yg masih dikira bertatih-tatih. Saya,mencintai semua ini.

Dugaan mencari ilmu,merupakan satu jalan pendakian jatuh,bangun,daki,terjatuh lagi dan kini masih mendaki. Cuma puncak yg baru pula. Setiap halangan menuju ke puncak. Sy terima,walau tidak terkira air mata yg menangisi episod perjuangan ilmu ini. Entah berapa kali sy jatuh tersungkur dan bangun lagi.

Yang pasti,hanya Allah menjadi teman menangis,mengadu,sujud,syukur,kasih dan segala yg sy perlukan. Hanya Dia. Dan antara cinta-cinta yg pernah sy alami,hanya Dia yg sentiasa kekal dan menemani. Agungnya kasih Allah! Subhanallah!

Sayalah yg lalai mengingat Dia. Saya juga hambaNya yg menangis kemudian ketawa tanpa malu. Saya,sebetulnya hanyalah Hamba. Betapa kerdilnya kita jika dibanding rahmat Tuhan Yang Maha Besar.

BUKAN AKHIR
Akhirnya,saya dapat menyelesaikan paper terakhir pengajian saya. Sukar digambarkan perasaan ini. Ada sebak di situ. Ada lega di situ. Juga rindu.

Ini bukan tanda akhirnya sebuah perjalanan. Ia cuma petanda akan bermulanya sebuah perjalanan baru yg lebih mencabar dan penuh pengajaran.Sy mahu terus belajar,dan belajar dan belajar hingga ke liang lahad. Kerana adanya kasih sayang Allah pd manusia yg kasihkan ilmu. Kerana itu sy mahu terus belajar. Sungguh berharap agar sy dapat merasa kasihNya dalm perjuangan ilmu. Semoga sy terus yakin dan berusaha.

"Life is no straight and easy corridor along which we travel free and unhampered, but a maze of passages, through which we must seek our way, lost and confused, now and again checked in a blind alley. But always, if we have faith, a door will open for us, not perhaps one that we ourselves would ever have thought of, but one that will ultimately prove good for us."

- A.J. Cronin -

p/s: Sy mendoakan kejayaan untuk semua rakan2 seperjuangan. Semoga berjaya dunia dan akhirat. Ameen.^^

Almost there

FINALS OF FINALS

Been drown in masses of book,reference,notes,short notes,past years and tonnes other exam preparation. Still, I need my escapisme route to relaxation and life precious moments.

Thanks to Digi,me and my lil sis won free tickets to Yuna's Secret Concert. Yeay! I attended the show(I did bring my short notes...uuu...feeling of guilt) and had bust off my stress chemicals. I meet new people and make new friends. Thank you Amira Husni and the gurls from USIM who are positively cheerful. Make my day.=)

Then quickly rushed off to home after a quick dinner at Pappa Rich without meeting Yuna herself.=(. It's exam week,I don't want to burn my chance to score. Still, I enjoyed the evening with her great performance and suave songs. ^^ Thanks Yuna.

UPDATING FROM SCREEN
Did you guys see my Malaysian Scarflets link?? *wink wink.=) hihi.... I updated news on Malaysian Scarflets Fashion almost every week. Although there are some links that connected to international online shop which I need to do a bit of blog organizing later~(uuu....my final papers need my attention).

What I love is now,I have wide range of fashion to choose from. And it's from people who understand how to look good in hijab. These are my new favourite links.

1. AMI SPUTNIK SWEETHEART- her line of fashion is superb.more on high fashion.
2. PASTELINA -run by 2 friends with creative new sweet design. *I love their Maxi skirts!
3 Diana Rikasari Up Shoes -this is from talented Indonesian designer. And she design beautiful creative wedges,which I ADORE!! check her out,you will not be dissapointed.
4. ButtonMyButtons-Need I say more? Ms Shahida's design always makes me drool....If only I cuti....

And others like Hijab fashion street, Kak Suri's blog are one of my weekly must-updates . Also new talent from Singapore Dian Hazwani. She has Norah Jones elements that I like. Her songs are quirky and enjoyable. Love it. Hopefully she'll be releasing new album and who knows? I might be in one of her shows.~<3

SIMPLYLIFESARAH NOW...

I know I build this blog to share many events in life. And yes I still do. Simplylifesarah is evolving. It has become a medium of connection for me to the world that is simply different from mine.

Simplylifesarah has meet new people,share experience,spread love and updates information that closely connected to me. I have evolve too. I learn,share,laugh and keep my positive attitude vibrate with this blog. It has colored my life beautifully.

From the SLE girl, Hijab fashion, events,people and many more. I shall write again. InsyaAllah... pray for my success in academic part. Whoever you are thank you,thank your for your willingness to share and to spread the love.

p/s: check out Yuna's new single-MEMO. Love it!

Be careful what you wish for....

TO BE ENOUGH

We always wish for a lot of things. And some we don't even know whether we really need it or even want it in the first place.

Why we wish for something? I guess we just wish things because we thought it could make us happy. Because we thought it could make all bad,painful things go away in an instant.

The truth,we could just be happy of what we have now. Being grateful everyday . Simple things. So obvious. Yet easily forgotten.

EVIDENTLY CONSTANT

Reality seeps in. In life,the only thing that is constant is change.

I've change. A lot. Or maybe, I just accept the hard cold truth about myself. Accepting how unexpected life could be.

Some of the things I wish come true. Some,just disappear as time move on. And some I sometimes wonder how could it be. As for now, I just wish to be enough as a person and as His servant.

One day, I'll write again. Passionately. Hopefully. For now,there's this step by step part I need to do.

Yeah,1 very important step.Hopefully it will went well. InsyaAllah.=)

BARAKA WOMEN (credit to Hijab&co)

FROM AUSTRALIA TO HIJAB LOVERS.




BARAKA WOMEN


p/s: My dearest friend Nur Izyani Kamaruzzaman, I might consider a trip to Aussie because I miss you. And hijab fashion shopping is just an added bonus.~<3 I miss you my sahabat.=)

Hijab House Collection

NEW LOVE


and new hope. wish it is closer to home. *wink.^^

BUSY APRIL- hijabfashion in love.( plus finals...^^)

HIJAB+ART=CREATIVE!

FLOWERS <3 BUTTERFLIES

These cute pins are made by my collegue. Ms Nur Amirah. You can always check out her facebook under my friends list. Be sure not to freak her out by introducing yourself first. Other than that she's a cool and fun person.
My fellow friends during our clinical training. And Ms Nur Amirah is the one with pink hijab. She has undeniable skills in making those cute pins.=)
some of her collections. If interested please check out her FB.^^

HANA TAJIMA INTERPRETATION
I love Hana Tajima Simpson's simple and functional style. She always has this minimalist yet unique sense of style. A successful expressive of monotone yet lively. A friend of mine recently potray her style. I enclose you some of the picture. Meanwhile,for all the hijabers out there, I send you my love and enjoy your fashion in faith!~<3
p/s: Thank you Ms Ili, Ms Hana and Ms Athira for such an amazing pose. I adore your love in fashion.^^

A memoir of closure.

AND THEN LIFE GOES ON.AS IT SHOULD BE.

I've been packing. Stuff that I need during April minimal 2 day stay in rumah sewa, and stuff that permanently must be send home. I mark the calendar.

It's 3oth March. And then 31st. The final date of March and April will come so fast,that we suddenly realized about 2 things;

One,our last ever final exam is just around the corner.

Two,it's time to say goodbye.

Funny how time flies eh?

THE FACT ABOUT LIFE

I've been through so many hurdles, ups and downs. Either alone,with my family or with my friends-I notice only one thing. People around me. They are real, mad, friendly, quirky, funny, unique, unfriendly, serious, narcissistic, sometimes you can bear them. Sometimes you can't even stand them.

But that what makes life as eventful as it should be. You meet people. You learn,share,laugh,cry, fight, debate anything... you know. Anything. Then you stop meeting them for a while. You meet other people. This time you learn as you meet more and more people along the way. Be it family or friends. or enemies. I don't know. Of course we never know about everything.

But I do know this.

We now,understand that people are just people. Imperfect in so many ways. Some you can be friends,some you just say hi and some are just some people you know from far. Or maybe just a complete stranger. But they are around you. And you are around them. Like it or not. We are people who live with other people.

I told you,like it or not.

IT WON'T LAST FOREVER,NOTHING DOES.

If you're brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments, and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher and if you are prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you. - adapted from eat.pray.love movie quotes.

I've finished watching the movie. How a person in search of something more in life. She found happiness in love and kindness. Which is from psychologically being is true.

But in my search of meaning in life, I always come back to one thing that never leave me, that never lose hope on me, and always remain my one and only savior. Allah s.w.t. The beauty of Islam, is life in this world seem so insignificant and is put at it's place as it should be.

Rasulullah saw bersabda mengumpamakan dunia ini sekadar sepohon pokok yang memberi tempat berteduh kepada pengembara.

Maksud sabda Rasulullah saw: Apalah erti dunia bagiku. Hubunganku dengan dunia ini laksana seorang pengembara yang sedang berjalan di bawah terik matahari.

Apabila melihat sepohon pokok yang dapat dia berteduh, maka dia berada sejenak di situ. Tetapi seketika kemudian dia meninggalkan tempat itu untuk meneruskan perjalanan.(Hadis riwayat Tarmizi).

And as I relate it to Islam, my religion,my belove believe that had always provide guidance and solid reference from Al-Quran and Sunnah. I came to understand that what is permanent in life is Allah. Only Him.

Other than that. Nothing last forever. Nothing ever does.

SO SAY GOODBYE, HELLO IF WE MEET AGAIN.

With this I end my most emotional blog to date with my upmost thank you for all the people around me whoever you are for being there, appreciating, loving, sharing, caring in this beautiful but still only a small part of journey in life.

I thank you all for teaching me the importance and real values. I thank you from the deepest part of my heart.I appreciate and cherish all the good memoirs we create together.

I have no regrets. Apologies ask and apologies given. But still I have no regrets.

Until then, when the final minute of spending life as UITM students come, I save my goodbyes and hellos. Until the time come.

Again. Thank you.

With all my heart,

Hanum Maisarah Abdul Rahman

UITM Pharmacy student

July 2007-May 2011

weekend hearts.

BALANCE! BALANCE!

Week 1 ended nicely. Got very interesting cases in ICU ward. Tired and positively saturated due to critically ill patients care is like an overall application of knowledge and experience rather than book referring course.

Got a report to be done. Hopefully I manage to do it right. Apart from experiencing critical illness care and the world of pharmacy,I experience other valuable things.

Like value of family,love,intention, work ethics and hard facts of medical world. The truth, I would love to learn everyday,fulfill my duty as His servant and feel happy at the same time. Well,I know it's hard to feel happy when you're busy plus in very stress situation.(note: hospital is my workplace,managing sick people is not like managing a fashion boutique ok?)

So, I promise myself to be grateful everyday. When I wake up after Subuh prayer, I tell myself,today is a good day. A beautiful day given by Allah. I must work smarter,ibadah harder and appreciate every moment I have.

Syukur. A simple practise. Worth a whole life.

SYUKUR SETIAP DETIK


Kita selalu nak bersyukur kalau kita diberi benda baru,
Dan kita lupa bahawasanya apa yang ada pada kita ini
Satu nikmat yang besar

Kata Hamka " Yang ada ini sudah harapan kita"
Tetapi insan,
Bukan salah untuk kita mengharapkan yang belum ada,
Tetapi jangan lupa yang telah ada

Sebab itu
Sebahagian dari para sarjana menyebut
Syukur kadang kala lebih tinggi makamnya daripada sabar
Ramai orang terpaksa sabar
Tetapi belum tentu orang yang dapat nikmat itu bersyukur
p/s:Kata-kata ini sy pinjam dari sahabat lama dari facebook. Maklum sejak akhir-akhir ini asyik berkejar ke hospital,menyiapkan laporan hospital dan kurang tidur. Urusan dunia yang tidak pernah habis.

APPRECIATE ME

Tired. Exhausted. Emotional drain. Sore muscles. Headaches. Stress. Striving to achieve goal. Unwanted events. heart wrenching conversation. unappreciated effort. work politics. gossip. back stabbers. heartless people. strict superior. limited experience. misunderstood. SLE.

Everything. Everything that we experience during our working life can bring up the worst or the best in you. It is how we deal with it everyday. I happen to be the trouble avoider person which help a lot in a very stressful situation. If it ain't broken don't fix it.

I also happen to be a learner, not 'I-know-everything-gal' type. I learn from every event,people,my own experience plus others. Yeah, I am not perfect too. Which is a good reminder.
At the end of the day, I just want to go home, to a place where I could be silly and still love. Home where my family is with unconditional love. Home where I am appreciated and as important as anyone in the world. Home, where my pain is manageable and condition is very well understood. Everyday, I am grateful.

Alhamdulillah.=)

p/s: I love you,mum and dad.~<3

midnight interpretation-polka dots et plain

VS PLAIN







AND POLKA DOTS

p/s:can't-get-enough-of-shawl

Tidak semudah Bumi Cinta.

DI ATAS SATU CINTA

pic source:perantau89@blogspot.com

Ost Surga Untukmu meneman malam. Sudah lama tidak benar-benar menghayati sebuah lagu. Juga sudah lama sy tidak menghabiskan sebuah novel. Koleksi terbaru Bumi Cinta karya Habiburahman El-Shirazy sempat dihadamkan sebelum minggu klinikal bermula.

Karya beliau kali ini mempunyai beberapa topik yang menarik. Mengambil Rusia sebagai pentas utama yang menyajikan ujian yang berat amat kepada watak utama yang diberi nama Ayyas. Indah dan sy sendiri agak kecewa pada diri kerana terburu-buru sedikit menghabiskannya.

Bumi Cinta ada magisnya tersendiri berbanding AAC dan KCB. Isinya sangat international kerana ia benar-benar melibatkan perbincangan perbandingan agama yang memerlukan penumpuan tinggi ketika membaca.

Jujur. Novel ini menekankan integriti jati diri seorang muslim/muslimah di tengah-tengah masyarakat yang bertunjangkan nafsu,bukan Tuhan. Dan saya mendapat banyak informasi yang berguna dalam membaca Bumi Cinta.

MEMILIH CINTA?
Usai habis membaca novel,sy kembali pada realiti.Menyusun sijil untuk temuduga SPA April ini serta menulis beberapa perancangan dalam jurnal. Berfikir-fikir apakah sy mahu mengambil master dalam bidang farmasi selepas PRP. Meneliti beberapa pilihan dalam kerjaya.

Aneh,beberapa rakan mengusik tentang soal jodoh dan perkahwinan di facebook. Tidak kurang beberapa soalan nakal dari orang-orang sekeliling. Sebenarnya,saya tidak mampu memahami cinta.

Apa yang saya mampu ialah berdoa dan memohon agar jauh dari cinta nafsu. Itu yang paling saya takut. Apakah sudah cukup ilmu dan kekuatan menghadapi badai dalam rumahtangga? Dalam keadaan saya yang sakit lagi kurang sempurna,mampukah saya menghadapi semua ini?

Sakit saya bukan pilihan. Ia ujian dari Tuhan. Tetapi untuk medirikan rumah tangga itu pilihan. Dengan siapa mahu dinikahi itu pilihan. Namun dalam posisi diri saya ini, saya tidak rasa sy layak memilih.

Dalam novel Bumi Cinta, Ayyas berhadapan dengan beberapa pilihan jodoh yg pelbagai. Juga dalam novel AAC dan KCB. Semuanya sempurna. Itu novel. Semuanya hampir sempurna. Cantik,berpendidikan, solehah, baik, pandai memasak, sihat dan the list goes on.

Namun, saya ini realiti. Hidup ini realiti. Dugaan ini realiti.Saya tidak mahu pilihan itu memakan diri.

DUGAAN SOLO

Dugaan membujang juga bukan sedikit. Fitnah, gosip, salah sangka dan segala label negatif mampu menguji iman di hati.

Apa yang saya ada, hanya kepercayaan pada Dia bahawa setiap ujian ada hikmahnya. Hentikan,ini bukan tulisan meminta kasihan. Ia tulisan realism.

Saya hanya mampu berdoa dan berharap yang baik-baik. Semoga Allah memakbulkan doa saya.

Brownies,cupcakes and everything nice.

FAMILY HOMEBAKE!
First,my mum and her sister (acu Ana) always have the enthusiasm in baking and cake decorations. Then come the baking business by Acu that wow Pahang clan and her faithful clients. I love baking pastry instead of cakes. Because it involve less eggs and I can put my favorites fruits,cheese or custards.
Then there are pies,puff pastry, lasagna and of course last but not least the unbaked cheese cakes. But,this March I bake brownies and cupcakes for people I care and love. I'm an amateur still and have a lot to learn.
pic: Acu in buns production.

Mum is currently expanding her skills in baking and clients in Shah Alam,while Acu is currently involve in bun,pizza and chocolate production.

I enjoyed cake decorating,but refuse a bite. Typical. Well,hopefully that my brownies and cupcakes smitten the gastronomical experience of my love ones. =) And I shall try again and again for the perfect bake ever. Really,just out of love.^^

Pak Cu in Pizza class.

p/s: If u want to checkout my aunties best ever bake product, you can check her facebook. It's Rohana Mohamed Nor Ana facebook. (Bear in mind,she cover Pahang area only....)

Yes,I am a hijaber.

KRITIKAN MEMBINA

Mula bertudung ketika 12 tahun. Tahukah apa yg mempengaruhi pilihan saya? Seorg sahabat. Seorg sahabat yg benar-benar baik. Dia merupakan insan yg memiliki akhlak yg baik dan ilmu yg tinggi. Sahabat baik sy ketika sekolah rendah,Aisyah Khaulah. Kebijaksanaan dan kebaikan beliau membuat hati sy terbuka menerima tudung sebagai pakaian harian.

Namun,bukan mudah. Sy dipersoal ahli keluarga sendiri. Yg pasti bukan Mama dan Abah. Mereka yg lain. Sukar. Apa lagi dipersenda kerana konon mahu tunjuk baik. Itu ketika zaman Islam dilihat sbg menghadkan kemodenan. Zaman lagu Micheal Jackson sedang hebat dan Madonna itu pujaan.
Sy tidak kenal siapa Imam Hassan Al-Banna. Lelaki berkopiah putih dan perempuan bertudung labuh sgt rigid dan solitary. Zaman TV dibakar atau dihumban sungai. Tergugat juga pilihan ini.
Apatah lagi Mama dan Abah lebih gemar menggalakkan sy mengkaji dan membaca berbanding mereka saja memberi input.

Kini,sy bersyukur. Pilihan yg dibuat bukan sekadar ikut-ikut teman sahaja. Saya memilih hijab kerana yakin suruhan Allah itu pasti membuahkan kebaikan. Sekarang,apa jua keputusan sy tetap merujuk sumber Islam.

JAUH DARI SEMPURNA
Namun sy jauh dr kesempurnaan. Sy masih lagi sedang membaiki diri dan kadang-kadang melakukan kesilapan sbg manusia biasa. Tetapi sy merasa tersinggung jua dgn aksi perempuan bertudung tetapi liar. Sy juga kasihan kepada mereka. Tindakan mereka itu tidak patut lansung malah merendahkan martabat perempuan yg bertudung dgn tujuan yg betul.


Tudung,menjadi satu adat atau sekadar fesyen yg tiada makna. Tiada intipati. Ia bukan lagi benteng maksiat, pakaian kesopanan mahupun pilihan yg disertai tanggungjawab. Sehelai kain yang menutup seluruh rambut di kepala menjadi mainan dan gurauan tidak bertanggungjawab sesetengah pihak.

Hairan.... ataupun sy sebenarnya merasa perlunya ada intiatif agar tudung itu diletak semula pada tempatnya. Initiatif yg progressif, pendekatan yg ceria dan berterusan memberi makna. Tidak menghentam mahupun melabel.

SEKULARISME YG MENYUSAHKAN

Dahulu,sy menggambarkan dalam minda sy,perempuan berjaya perlu bersikap penuh moden dan aggresif mengejar cita-cita. Pendek kata, mengejar urusan dunia bersungguh-sungguh. Pendek betul akal ketika itu.
Sukar sy mengaitkan Islam dgn sains,Islam dgn kemodenan,Islam dgn globalisasi. Meletak dunia di tapak tangan dan akhirat di hati adalah sesuatu yg sgt asing ketika itu. Majalah yg memaparkan wanita moden separuh berpakaian lebih dianggap cantik berbanding bertudung. Ya,kesan pendedahan berterusan Barat.

Kini,wanita bertudung sudah mempunyai rangkaian fesyen tersendiri. Mereka terus mengejar cita-cita malah memiliki keanggunan dalam bertudung. Tahniah kepada wanita bertudung yg berjaya dan mempraktiskan cara hidup Islam yg sebenar. Ia membuka lembaran baru dalam dunia wanita dan lebih disenangi.

PILIHAN ITU PERLU DISERTAI TANGGUNGJAWAB.

Kepada wanita yg terus bertudung dgn niat yg ikhlas,tahniah sy ucapkan. Malah sy mahu mengingatkan diri sendiri terutamanya agar terus segar berfesyen dgn bertudung. Fesyen yg mematuhi syariah pastinya.

Sy cemburukan Hijabers Community yg berjaya menghasilkan muslimah moden lagi professional. Tahniah kalian. Di sini sy juga ingin kongsikan link kegemaran sy utk penggemar fesyen muslimah sejati:

1. Hijab Scarf by Ms Fifi Alvianto dan Ms Hanna Faridl
2. The merchant daughter by Ms Dian Pelangi
3. Style Covered by Ms Hana Tajima
4. Hijab Style(UK's first style guide for muslimah) by Ms Jana
5. Hijab trendz
6.Irna La Perle by Ms Irna La Perle
7. Hijabers community

These are my favourites among so many hijab bloggers. Plus all the hijab tutorial that you can find in You Tube. We love sharing tips aren't we? And please, if you have suggestion or any comments please feel free to do so. I love sharing informations.