Wednesday, March 30, 2011

A memoir of closure.


I've been packing. Stuff that I need during April minimal 2 day stay in rumah sewa, and stuff that permanently must be send home. I mark the calendar.

It's 3oth March. And then 31st. The final date of March and April will come so fast,that we suddenly realized about 2 things;

One,our last ever final exam is just around the corner.

Two,it's time to say goodbye.

Funny how time flies eh?

I've been through so many hurdles, ups and downs. Either alone,with my family or with my friends-I notice only one thing. People around me. They are real, mad, friendly, quirky, funny, unique, unfriendly, serious, narcissistic, sometimes you can bear them. Sometimes you can't even stand them.

But that what makes life as eventful as it should be. You meet people. You learn,share,laugh,cry, fight, debate anything... you know. Anything. Then you stop meeting them for a while. You meet other people. This time you learn as you meet more and more people along the way. Be it family or friends. or enemies. I don't know. Of course we never know about everything.

But I do know this.

We now,understand that people are just people. Imperfect in so many ways. Some you can be friends,some you just say hi and some are just some people you know from far. Or maybe just a complete stranger. But they are around you. And you are around them. Like it or not. We are people who live with other people.

I told you,like it or not.


If you're brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments, and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher and if you are prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you. - adapted from movie quotes.

I've finished watching the movie. How a person in search of something more in life. She found happiness in love and kindness. Which is from psychologically being is true.

But in my search of meaning in life, I always come back to one thing that never leave me, that never lose hope on me, and always remain my one and only savior. Allah s.w.t. The beauty of Islam, is life in this world seem so insignificant and is put at it's place as it should be.

Rasulullah saw bersabda mengumpamakan dunia ini sekadar sepohon pokok yang memberi tempat berteduh kepada pengembara.

Maksud sabda Rasulullah saw: Apalah erti dunia bagiku. Hubunganku dengan dunia ini laksana seorang pengembara yang sedang berjalan di bawah terik matahari.

Apabila melihat sepohon pokok yang dapat dia berteduh, maka dia berada sejenak di situ. Tetapi seketika kemudian dia meninggalkan tempat itu untuk meneruskan perjalanan.(Hadis riwayat Tarmizi).

And as I relate it to Islam, my religion,my belove believe that had always provide guidance and solid reference from Al-Quran and Sunnah. I came to understand that what is permanent in life is Allah. Only Him.

Other than that. Nothing last forever. Nothing ever does.


With this I end my most emotional blog to date with my upmost thank you for all the people around me whoever you are for being there, appreciating, loving, sharing, caring in this beautiful but still only a small part of journey in life.

I thank you all for teaching me the importance and real values. I thank you from the deepest part of my heart.I appreciate and cherish all the good memoirs we create together.

I have no regrets. Apologies ask and apologies given. But still I have no regrets.

Until then, when the final minute of spending life as UITM students come, I save my goodbyes and hellos. Until the time come.

Again. Thank you.
With all my heart,
Hanum Maisarah Abdul Rahman
UITM Pharmacy student
July 2007-May 2011


MaRdHatILLah(Fatahiyyah) said...

btul tu anum dalam hidup kt ni mcm2 org yg kita jumpa..ada yg blh jd kawan,ade yg blh jd lawan..kadang2 permulaannya kawan..penghujungnya musuh,dan kadang2 permulaanya musuh dihujungnya kawan..ya betul hanya Allah s.w.t segalanya bg kt..anum dh abis study ke?so how about the next program..futher study ke keje?

anumz sarah said...

Salam kak ayong,

Hidup ni mmg unexpected. Anum setuju dgn pendapat kak ayong. InsyaAllah anum akan bersangka baik dgn semua. Dan yg penting anum sendiri kena ikhlas. Anum akan habis final exam 9/5/2011. InsyaAllah plannya mcm2. Tapi anum nak tgk keadaan dulu. Kita merancang Allah menentukan. Buat masa skrg ni anum mahu explore semua field farmasi yg ada. Dan baru buat keputusan. Mohon doanya kak...^^